My last post was made when I was in a really dark place. I'm not feeling a whole lot better but it's bumming me out reading it every time I visit my page, so here's some lyrics/poetry I've been working on:
Early to bed, to rise, tonight I'll
Force myself awake til I fall like a babe
And anxiously the next day,
too early to be wasted I wait
For the sun to set, so I can exhaust myself
And drown my brain for one more breath
Of fresh dead air
Early to rise despite myself, it's healthy
Sitting by myself, luxury lets me lift myself
Above the hell beyond my door
Alone I wait, fading, debating plunging
Funding freedom against the devil's who deify themselves
Leaving Satan beside himself like "I thought I was evil, what the hell?"
In the distance - is that school or alarm bells?
Is that ambulabce or cop wails?
And when will the ambulance come?
Where will the shooters run when they're done?
Straight to the arms of the gunfellows,
The walking gallows grifting the world on their hallows
And the world lets them howl loud as they like,
Say what they like no matter the fight
the UN doesn't fight the power they are
Or bite the hand of the bartender
Turn the car around? They started the motherfucker
Wasted in the sacred quiet,
Bearing teeth, on fire to riot
Waiting for the changing science
Breathing in the fresh dead air